Friday through Monday. slow go slow

Her surgery last Thursday was very successful. Everything else, still dangerous and slow. The weekend was a blur, all of this has been a blur of endless nights, similiar situations, and days slept away, and yes more hospital. I think I did go for a beer Friday night, and Carter and I went out for one Saturday. Brenda, thank God, came in Saturday and has been a wonderful distraction and support crew member. We went out last night to a Dominican restaurant for stint, karaoke and dancing. Got to shoot some Tequila and Brenda got a dance. It was good head numbing material. Went for a walk today with my friend Cherie over the interstate and to the Washington Bridge looking splendid in the sunset. It felt almost dreamlike, and kinda like being in the woods of Mississippi. It was nice to see God's beauty amidst the city industry. Its been a similiar story everyday. She is more conscious of pain now, and she was very scared right after her surgery. She had three vagal episodes which were scary as shit. Where her heart beat went way down and her blood pressure spiked, it is like fainting but looks like a damn stroke. After these incidents she is out of it for hours which lead you to believe that she has turned into a vegetable. Which isnt true. Otherwise, the weekend got better as Brenda got in, no bad issues. Her temp is 99 something during the day and spikes up to 102 something at night. Nicole even suggested putting bags of ice under her wrists and head. The girl has an internal fever, the pneumonia in her lungs and other infections are causing it. She doesn't feel it. We continue to move her neck into various different positions and try to hawk over the nurses to make sure they mother the shit out of Nicole before they do anything to her so she doesn't freak out. The nurse was just talking to me about it. They have let me stay in the room for most procedures now so I can eye her in the face and tell her everything is cool (all except one nurse). So, its another night of pain and discomfort and moving and high temps. Today they took the feeding tube our of her nose and put one directly into her gut. They say thats progress but it just sounds like another hole to get an infection. But I am sure its easier to eat than having things go from your nose down. ooooh. They say Trachiatomy for sure in the morning which i hope hope hope pray goes well. If all goes well then maybe we can talk about getting out of here soon. Wait and see, wait and see.